I received a phone call from a friend saying, “well you hadnt blogged in awhile so I had to call to get an update” LOL. I dont always blog about things going on in my life but since I do blog under my name and not some clever pen name I suppose I will give a little update.
I started school on the 17th. Most of my classes are online, I only go to campus one day a week. I was very ignorant to think online classes would be easier, ha! It is a lot of work, time management and dedication. I have gotten through some rough days. I pushed through and came out feeling great. I had moments of not “getting it” and instead of giving up while textbooks flew across the room, I took a breath and kept going. Pushing through I had the gift of more than one “ah-ha” moment.
I also didnt realize it was such a big deal to be a full time student. I keep getting this response, “what, you went from no school to full time?!!” Well, yes I did and please dont scare me like that! All in all I am enjoying it. I wish I would have finished school um uh yeah, way back then but I am also glad I get to do it at an age where I know I will learn more. I have a greater appreciation for school now than I did when I was 20 something.
Basically I am putting in about 35-40 hours a week for school, that includes class, studying and homework. I do not know how people work and go to school! Jeez, this IS my job, I am a student.
I have also learned we are very lucky in California, college is pretty inexpensive compared to other states. So unless at some point I want to transfer to some Ivy league school back East I think I will be ok financially after its all said and done:)
I’m also going to group therapy sessions at least every other week. It’s good on many levels but obviously beacause I want to be a therapist one da. I love the way this Doctor practices, all her theories etc. are right on when it comes to communication and relationships.
On the acting front. Hmmmm been a bit slow. My choice though so it’s not a bad thing. Just enjoying the boyfriend, cherishing the moments with him. Enjoying family and of course school now. Acting will always be a part of my life but I have also realized I have passion for other things as well. I want to try to fit everything into this precious thing called life. I cant wait until Ray and I start traveling! That is my next big thing I want to do in life, I want to visit so many places. Next summer we are going somewhere for sure, maybe we will do New York together since he’s never been, then go to Paris from there:) Ah that would be fabulous.
I love my life and where it’s going. Its an exciting journey. Getting older can be a beautiful thing. There is a calm about it. You just feel less inclined to do certain things or be a certain way. You have more trust in yourself. You know what makes you happy, what brings joy to your everyday life. You dont worry about what others say, you dont worry about “their story” for your life. You dont get defensive. There is any inner calm, a quiet strength.
I also dont get wrapped up in what someone else is doing or not doing. If they are happy then I am happy. If youre not happy then change it, at least start with something, anything. But I wont “push” anything on you. I will offer words, advise, suggestions and you can do with them what you wish. If you want to do nothing thats fine, I wish you all the best, no matter what.
I’m still smoke free. It’s been a little over 6 months. I wish I could say I feel great! Unfortunately, I’ve had other health issues pop up. Seems I most likely have an under active thyroid. It was probably masked by the nicotine, very common in women. I had the pleasure of “meeting” someone on twitter that had the same exact thing happen to her! So we shall see what happens in the next few weeks. Right now I am trying to be as strict as I possibly can with the foods I eat. Im also taking supplements. I still need to start working out not just running with the dog but go to gym.
I’m finishing up a script and I have another one I am dying to get started, the idea came to me about a week ago. It came to me very very clear. I know exactly what I want to do with it, I see it. It reminds me of when I envisioned “Until Next Time” so I am pretty excited about it. I am not going to make a crazy deadline BUT I would love to be able to shoot it next summer and the most fabulous thing… it is only ONE location!
I recently learned how to work at my Mama’s little general store. It was so fun! It’s fun when you go to a small town after living in the city 24/7. I spent a couple days at the store so my Mom could get some other things done and she didnt have to pay me:) well she did buy dinner.
Ok so is it strange or is it just my ultra sensitive side BUT have there been a lot of deaths lately or what??? I swear it just makes me appreciate so much! I have gone through a lot in the past 6 months battling these lil health issues and such and I just keep putting on a smile each day even if I dont feel like it because I just feel so blessed to be alive and have Ray and my family and friends.
Oh goodness I just got very sleepy….
