The other day I blogged about what happens to me when I usually decide to write a blog; better yet, the reason why I decide to write…well it happened again today.

Unfortunately, in the last few days I have had to write a couple of emails that I generally would not ever write. I wont get into details because they are personal and do not want to share such things.

Today, again on twitter I saw a quote that represented almost to a T what I went through in the last few days with a few people.

“Unjust criticism is just a disguised compliment. It means that you have aroused jealous and envy. Because no one would kick you when your down.”

I found this so fitting for this week especially after one email in particular that i received where someone had the nerve to speak negatively about something/someone in my life. This person had absolutely no idea what they were talking about at all, like zero! This was complete “unjust criticism.” This persons envy is so horrible that it drove them to say some awful things, based on their irrational thoughts and feelings.

We all get irrational at times, please, I can be the queen of that. However, I keep that shit to myself, hello! It in no way runs my life, maybe when I was like 22 or something and it definitely is not going to make me say horrible things to someone, especially someone I consider a friend. I may discuss my irrational thoughts or feelings with a friend, to vent, get it out and thats a huge maybe. Basically, if Im sayin’ something horrible it is going to be based on facts, something someone did or said to me and even then I will most likely work it out in my own way, thoughts , writing, talking with a trusted friend or my sister or mom.

We have all said things in life that we regret later. It is an awful feeling because you can never ever take those words back. You can never erase the way you made someone feel. We have all done it. But where do you draw the line when someone continually does it? There has to be a time where you say enough is enough. Its like staying with an abusive boyfriend. So if you feel like a person is being malicious in hurting you, that’s when it’s time to walk away.

Someone may hurt you that really doesnt want to hurt you. They may be going through a hurt that is so bad it makes them become “ugly” towards others. If this is the case, I think its each individuals choice when they have to walk away from that person. Its like you gotta say what Samantha said to her b/f in “Sex and The City” Movie. “I do love you but I love me more.” There comes a time in all of our lives where we have to be the one that loves our self the most, that treats our self the best, that cherishes oneself and so on and so on.

I try to spread love and kindness. It’s what feels good for me. I dont feel good after being mean to someone, I dont feel good after tellin someone off, I dont feel good ignoring people, I dont feel good being rude to people…..have I done these things, of course. I try to to be kind even when I dont want to, LOL but seriously this week people got to me. What sucks about it is its people that I cared about and thought they cared about me, well of course right, thats when we get angry, its usually b/c we care. Even though 1 person wasnt a long time friend or anything it was someone who I thought differently about, didnt know they would go where they went. that always sucks.

FYI…dont ever talk shit about my man or my Family. straight up, no questions asked, period. you will be done. no mas. oh and my girlfriends, yeah I once broke up with a guy for talking shit about my friend. That gives you an idea how I am. I wouldnt break up with the one I have today, LOL but uh you get my drift. If you have a complaint about friends, I will listen, Im flexible, if its constructive. If you wanna complain about my man or my family, there is no room for that dont even try it. The ones close to me never would, they no how much I love Ray and my fam. they also know he is a keeper and so is my family:) I dont have a lot of people in my life outside of family, I literally can count on 2 hands who my friends are. Thats it. Im ok with that. If I add to that its a beautiful thing b/c at this point in my life anyone getting added is going to be a great person. I dont hang with with anything but great ha:) I go by people’s hearts, their intentions, thats how you can tell a great person. They may have faults, issues, even be a lil nutty but if their hearts intentions are all good that is all that matters, seriously.

Im not looking for anything in my friendships other than trust, giggles, dinner, girl time here and there, phone time here and there etc. there is no pressure, no crazy high expectations, just be kind, seriously, thats it. You dont have to come clean my house or watch my dog when im away, you dont have to bring me anything when Im sick, nothing, seriously. Just be kind, respect my life and what I do and be willing to talk on the phone about stupid shit and also have some good spiritual deep talks as well, you know I love that. Even if you arent into the deep stuff, Im ok, I have people in my life that are.

Ok now I must go to sleep…hmmmm will be intersting to see if my headache goes away after purging all these thoughts….